The Sovereignty

My mother used to remind me to read Surah Al Mulk before I hit the bed.
I usually do it. Really.
But because this hectic month and maybe (mostly this part, actually) I just being a lazy mazy girl (again),
so my mother reminder ended up in back of my head.
But this night, the longing feeling to read that Surah comes in front of my face.
When I read it slowly, word by word, there's a feeling of yearning in my chest.
Its burning. Suddenly, I realized.
That I missed this. 

I love hearing this video.
I think that because the voice is look likes my brother voice when he read Qur'an.
and the voice just lovely to hear.

Bücher

"... and what is the use of  a book?" thought Alice, 

 "without  pictures and conversation?" 

Lewis Carroll. Alice's adventures in Wonderland. 1865

I love reading a lot. 

Maybe this habit come after my Mom. 

She has a lot of books and love reading it in her spare times, even back then when she had worked. 

I remember there's a time when she bought a book for me and reading it out loud. 

It started from the series of dolphin tales. 

And when I began read it by myself, I begging for more books.

Now, I'm missing the feeling when you open the first page of a new book and sniffing at it (I know, a lil bit weirdo, don't you thing?) 

 I need to buy a new book. 

ASAP, before I get spared because missing that feeling so bunch. 

 

Selbstschutz

My friend ever told me once, that maybe...

I just don't want to get hurt. 

So I protect myself out from everything which is could be a weapon for myself. 

I never let them get close enough. 

I built a wall between. 

I kept the space. 

or worse, I just need to run away. 

It could be the truth, or just a silly understanding of me from him. 

"So I won't let you close enough to hurt me."

Turning Tables, Adele

Deux

"Truth can surely stand on one leg, but with two it will be able to walk and get around."

Friedrich Nietzsche 

"It takes two to speak the truth: one to speak, and another to hear."

Henry David Thoreau

"It takes two, or more, to make memories" 

Two by Lenka 

Simply fall in love with this video at the first sight. 

Uniquely creative and fab, yet still have the meaning in it. :) 

And Lenka has an unique voice too to make it more and more, rite? 

Insomnie

"Nothing cures insomnia like the realization that it's time to get up."

Unknown

"Insomnia is defined as repeated difficulty with the initiation, duration, maintenance, or quality of sleep that occurs despite adequate time and opportunity for sleep and results in some form of daytime impairment. Insomnia is usually a transient or short-term condition, transient insomnia lasts up to 1 week. It is often referred to as adjustment sleep disorder." (taken from Medscape Reference) 

Does it still a disorder when it always get back on you? 

Passé

The past is a reflection of the present 

It explains why it's the way it is. 

(anonymous)

I do not like looking through someone's past. 

Just to know how it had made that person. 

Or trying to know the reflection of the present. 

The past will be stay at the past. 

That's me. 

Allé

"You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go." 

Those are the lame words for me.

Because when you love someone so much, you just can't let him/her go.

You can't make them disappeared from your life so... suddenly.

Cause it will hurt you enough. 

well, that's it for me. 

Kelly indeed looks stunning in this video. 

Always like her voice. 

Fois

Had a short conversation.  

Me : Seems like I don't have a time. 

He : Naah.. Time is always be there. 

Wow. Those words just stuck in my mind till now. 

Yes, we always have a time. 

But, time does fly, don't you think? 

Speicher

Today's words: 

"The hearts has its reasons, of which the minds knows nothing."

- Blaise Pascal

"And it takes two (or more) to make a memory."

- Unknown

Bleu

I'm suddenly feeling blue tonite. 

What a waste mood, don't you think? 

Frieden

We always deserve some peace after a rough and hectic week, don't we? :) 

And here's some things that make me feels calm through the day.

Books, books, and books! 

I always want a cactus, and I just love the pot. 

A LOTS OF SWEETS.
Who doesn't love it, anyway? 

and a bunch of sunflower could make me smiling till next month.
I'm in love with this flower since I was a kid back then.
Probably a love at first sight.

p.s : all the picts  doesn't belong to me. 

I get it from here

  

Sich Anvertrauen

Sometimes life just go flat.
Spinning around this place for a long time.
Till you don't have any thing to tell others,
how's life for you.

It's just flat. 
Here and there. 
Seems plain and in white-and-black world.
Need to find a box of color pencil. 
Orange would be great, then.

l' confusion

I've been staring at the blank page almost one hour.
Still having the question mark on my mind.
What kind of story I should tell now?
Seems like nothing will come up to my dearly brain.
And how could it be?
Of course, I've already knew the exact answer.
I'm in state of doing-things-for-a-good-impression.

These kind of feeling, well... always making me likes facing a thick wall after looking an exit door.
I'm stuck in this room.
When I'm doing something because I want to someone look good on me.
That's just not rite. 
And my brain seems doesn't like it either.

Need to get rid of this. 
Maybe a bunch of my favorite food (a bunch of oranges, two cans of Bear Brand Milk, and a bar of chocolate with almond in) can help me realize why this bothering me a lot.

Every ones has their own ways to bring relax back, rite? :)

Sincérité

I was constantly repeat this surah over and over again for a whole week.

It's calmed me down.

For all the madness-crazy-silly-and fool-things I've done which lead me to regretting it more.

Sincerity is what I need to growing in my self more.

You all know, (some of you who know me for real, maybe) that I'm not a fan of coincidence thingy.

I believes that everything have been written in 'book of life'.

Everything has their own valuable to me.

Even a simply smile from stranger I met at the street.

It can make me smile through the whole day. :)

Just a simple tiny little thing called sincerity is what I need to do more now.

And this is not an easy task, I know.

so I'm on duty now.

Mon Frère

Someone who is there

when you are hurting

he picks you up

and dusts you off again

Someone who sees you are without a smile

and he gives you one of his

gives you a hug too

just especially for you

Someone who stands by your side

and holds your hand

when things don't go well

help you understand

a brother

(a poem by Katarina Bowman)

For the best brother of mine,

Hariestya Viareco

Happy Birthday!!

The Most Romantic

This is one of the best and the most romantic movie I ever watched.

"You're the girl of my dreams, and apparently I'm the man of yours."

(50 First Dates, 2004)

Can you imagine to make the one you love fall in love with you every each day?

I know that seems impossible, though.

But, for me, that's what we called love.

You have to fall in love every each day to that person..

and you never ever feel tired or bored to make it.

Cause the real feeling never makes you weak but stronger.

We have to make it work..

Well, that's one for me.

This movie had teach me over and over again (not to mention the two main characters make a good couple in here),

if you wanna have a real love and relationship,

you have to put an effort to make it work...

or feeling that you fall in more each day to that person..

p.s : I just lost my blackberry phone. and thought that I shouldn't get too hard on myself then get away with that terrible thing, so I watched the movie likes maybe for the 10th times? Still the best.

November, 5th.

V for Vendetta

"Remember, remember, the fifth of November:

Gunpowder, treason, and plot.

I know of no reason

why the gunpowder treason

should ever be forgot."

These are the lines of the opening for the films, allude directly to the story of Gunpowder plot at 1605. The movie itself is an adaptation or V for Vendetta graphic comics. Even the original writer, Alan Moore feels a disappointment because the bad adaptation of his comic, I still attached with this movie.

The story and how Hugo Waeving as V and Natalie Portman as Evey Hammond interact, not to mention the fabulous Guy fawkes mask. I never forget the feeling they made when Evey get in the prison (later we know that the prison made by V itself to make Evey understand what makes him to be... him).

Ah, yesterday makes me want to watch this movie again and again, don't you?

Holiday for a year!

I was attached to that picture.

The person who sit lazily while reading a book is one of my favorite author, Paulo Coelho.

I like the words, its so inspiring for me to doing what I love the most as a work.

Mostly people says, change your hobby to be your passion.

Therefore, you will never be in pain or feel wronged when doing your works.

So, what's your passion? :)

The Desert

The Desert edited by me

Found such a great story while I'm blog-walking

and I do love the words:

"To cross the desert, you have to face your fears before they face you. In order to overcome your fears, you need a friend who cares about you more than you care about yourself. When fear is shared by two, it becomes less frightening."

These words taken from The Desert story by Yasser Hareb in here

Se siente vacío y frío

Kalt is edited by me.

It feels so hard to just take a breath.

Let alone dreaming.

acerca de usted

acerca del futuro

acerca de nosotros

Querida, where will we go?

De Girasol

This pict is edited by me.

Just like a Sunflower.

Always looking at the sun.

Silently.

Hoping the Sun will look back at her.

Just like me.

Praying for you.

Silently.

Die Natch

It's just another night.

Quiet.

Calm.

Warm.

Like none can take this moment away.

Even the stormy rain behind the clouds.

This is what I love when I get my sicko-side back on.

just another night.

a long night.

p.s. : the photograph is taken from google and edited by me :)

A Simplices Dream

"Dreams Cup" edited by me

Thought that everybody have a simple dream
Live a simple life
Get the desired job
Have a lil but warm family
a big and old tree at the garden
a beautiful wife who loves to cook
and two lovely kids
with a nice man being husband and the father
just a simple dream
but it seems so hard to get
don't you think so?

A Frage

'Frage' ( Question) is taken and edited by me

Some people asked you,
'Who are you?'
'What is your passion?'
'Let me know how big is your dream.'
'What you want to do now? later? in your life?'
'Tell me bout your vision.'
etc, etc, etc.

Do you mind not asking me those questions?
There's time to figure it out!
and I will figure it out.

Soon.

Selamat Ulang Tahun

Regali di compleanno was edited by me.
the original one taken from deviantart.com

I love 28 of May.
That's my b'day.
The day when every people wish me all the best and luck.
The day when every people pray for me.
I love birthday!
especially when it happens to me. hohoho...
anyway, happy b'day to you, Ree.

As White As The Sky

this picture was taken by me, that name below means 'white'

"My philosophy, like color television, is all there in black and white"
-Monty Phyton, (Creators and stars of the television comedy series Monty Python's Flying Circus)-

That quotes simply stick into my mind all day long.
People, count me in, dividing the world into two different colors: white or black.
We seems to think you are a white one if you are a nice person.
The other, who have devil in their heart and in everything they do, are black.
Have people forgotten that the world have the other colors?
Gray. Green. Yellow. Even pink!
One day, my friend asked me the percentage of devil wish in me.
I said, 75 % I am an angel dear, but the rest of it.
Well... you wouldn't want to know and step into it, babe!
Why people dividing the world into two those colors?
Why it couldn't be more?
and... why it bothering me so bad?

"Zukunft"

Zukunft means Future in Germany, the photo is taken by me

"I never think of the future - it comes soon enough. "
Albert Einstein

I'd like to think of what would the future bring to me.
What will I do at my 25?
Who's my damn-he-is-so-lucky husband?
What kind of job that filling my day?

But, when I got those feeling
(the feeling that pushed your mind into the limits and holding your breath away)
I'd like to not to think of what would the future bring to me.
Just stick in with the future labeled secret, could we?
and thinking the way that it's a surprise for you.
From Life.

Gracias

Merci, is taken and edited by me

This week was an exhausting week.
A lot of things have to do.
A bunch of tasks from my beloved lecturer.
and I dunno why but feels like the times just passed by, without saying even a word to me!
maybe just a lil word named Gracias.
so I can appreciated what I've done.
For me, those word is easy to say to anyone who've help me.
It's not like you have to say, I love you.
It's a more simple words and easier to say.

so why isn't it for you all, though?

Pick up Le Bonheur!

This pict is edited by me

At one of my class, we'd discussed about Happiness.
The value of it.
The parameter.
And also, the meaning of it, eventually.
By myself, I assumed that happiness isn't come to your hands by itself.
That thing is, something that you have to grab it fast.
You reaches it.
And of course, sometimes, you have to make it happens by your own.

Shingle...

Well I dunno.
It's just my mind seems have too much things to thinks.
=________=
It's overlapping.
Everything spinning around in my mind.
Like a tangled yarn.

Will-o'-the-wisp!

This pict is edited by me. I called it 'Impian' means 'Reverie'.

I was reading a book. The Pilgrimage by Paulo Coelho, one of my favorite writers.
This book talking bout his journey to Santiago. But there is one character in this book, Petrus, who is his guide and if I may say, his teacher. in that book, Petrus explained about reverie. Dream.
When we were young, we liked to dream big. Slowly but sure, we were afraid to reach that dream. Petrus said that we were afraid to 'fight tooth and nail', or struggle as hard as we could. But we were too scared.

Maybe I'm in this phase. I have my own dreams. But I'm just being childish, too scared of anything. I need a remembrall, that can help me remembering my dreams. Anyone have?

Confusion

this pict is edited by me

Confusion.
If only we could see the future.
We don't need to worry or feels that way
But we are only humans.
Which is remains me, whatever the path we choose
There is always something worth in
and a gift for us
at the finish line.

Stuck.

The Wall was edited by me, as usual.

I'm feeling like at the brink. You're scared, but at the moment you're curious, too.
You want to know, when you jump to that brink, where it will end?
How's there? What does it feel?
The bad part is, I don't know what to do with this feeling.
It's pressuring me and making me hard to breath.

Try on the taste...

People says Life is like a jar of candies
There are sweet
There are briny
There are sour
and sometimes it's bittersweet
But that's depend on us to take the taste
aren't we?

Green or Blue? Seems all the same...

All in green..
not even blue...
all the shapes of the moment..
assimilate..
and I just realized it..
I don't need that 3 words, 8 syllables from your mouth
all you have to do is just
asks me to stay
beside you
at the green...

Lonesome

Maybe, I am just missing you..
I'm missing our moments...
You and your dark eyes, staring at me...
Your voice, not an angelic one nor the devil's wish, ringing in my head...
We, just me and you, keeping our heart in silence...
Do you feel the yearning, speaking in the air?

Dilemma ...

A or B?
Yes or No?
Will you or Won't you?
Bad or Good?
Do or Don't?

Whatever the option you takes, you have the cognizance behinds your back.
We know it's never simple nor easy, rite?
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the picture, as usual, was taken by me. Don't know why, but One Republic with their Secrets ringing on my mind all day long. :)

My feminin side...

that's picture which taken by me, and the object basically are my things

I might be,

Crying like a baby when watching a very romantic movie...
Screaming like a kids when I seeing anythings cute and pretty..
Imagining a prince with his curly hair, coming to me riding a white horse...
Thinking like a thousand times, wondering what do I looks like with this cloth on me..
Gossiping the new stories of what happens in our life with my pals...
Having stuff related to a plan for makes me feel more beauty in my bag...

You and people just don't realize it yet...
To thinking that I am a girl...
:)

Feels old...

This Pict was taken by me, that Mr.Ted is a gift from my lovely friends.

It's almost 2 am now
I don't even sure what I'm feeling rite now..
sick?
tired?
hurt?
unwell?
Maybe I'm feeling left behind of your life.
I know that we all keep this thing together. We keep our promise deep in our heart.
We said every times, we missed each other.
A lot
But really, I do feel like there is a big hole at my heart.
And yes, it's not easy to handle with it.

Hold on a minute

"Hold on" was taken by me

Have you ever realized, that the problem isn't at outside rather than yourself?
Sometimes you'll wondering why you don't know the reason behind your acted.
You know that there are something wrong within yourself.
There's none to be blame but yourself.
There's no wall nor the door which keep in yourself made you scared to walk by.
And you know, the only one who make it difficult is yourself and your list that always you keep in deep in your main.
I just need to hold on a minute.
Take my breath.
Watch my steps.
And see trough inside to get away all of the scared.