Feeling artsy, don't we?

Assalammu'alaikum. wr.wb..

Hi!
I'm very thankful that I live in an artsy environment.
Mama loves knitting and sewing, and just like me, she like to makes her own clothes!
She also loves to read as much as I am. We both can spend a whole day at bookstore, just browsing and looking for the new book. Though my genre are still a bit confusing for her to read, she loves Islamic book.
Bang Ayik have magic finger.
He even draw a whole world map by his own when he was at junior high school and his drawing is cool.
Too bad he never draw anymore, I don't know why.
Papa.. well, he is a gift in music.
He said that when he was in junior high school, he and his brother has their own band! h. such a waste, e never teach us how to play guitar or drum.
Me? I like doodling... and babbling. :p
Naah... I have a lot of friends who love music, art, and literature as much as I am.
So whenever one of us blog walking and find some artsy websites or products, we'll always send the link to others, by twitter or facebook message.

And my sister, Betyona Bioza, found this amazing woman.. Ayang Cempaka.
This are some of her illustrations..

Go check her website or portfolio to know more about the illustration.
:)

To love is..

am working on my paper.. got bored.. and voila! I found this. 

Like what one of my friend said to me, 

to love is to give your heart and be vulnerable..  

source: Drifting Between Stars 

no, i'm not giving the key out.. 

yet. 

*working back to finish the paper* 

Guten Tag!

It's been a while since my last post.
Seems like I always find excuses to procrastinating with this page.
Lot of interesting and inspiring things me, but failed to get their way through this page.
What with my last semester at University and got internship at the end of last year giving me enough reasons to forgot posting.

And now I'm taking a break and deep breath before starting the last journey of University world, getting graduate. 

Being a last semester's collegian will give you a big luggage, trust me.

So I spent my holiday times with made my own dream catcher and scrap book (my projects, it have been a while, like a life time, for me getting my way with this scrap ideas and DIY projects), spent some times with my bestie, went to other city, got my self a new long cardigan, and lot of blog-walking.

This one I got from my long-time of blog-walking,

Surat Kaleng 

I love this concept.
It is a great way to confess what you feels to other people, for a shy people like me (yeah, I am a shy girl and romantic at heart).
Even I am not a fan of Valentine's day, I still like this projects. You can confess the feelings you have to other people by a letter, and they couldn't know whose it come from (unless you giving yourself out, of course),
 so it's like nothing to lose, right?
Unfortunately, you must have someone whom you could confess to for make it works.
It's a sad thing that you have no hidden things to confess from someone when you know there's a way to let them know your feelings!
Such a waste. 
But for other people out here, it's your chance!
Go grab it and confess your feelings! :)  

The last thing, I found this amazing and inspiring blog!
Actually I'm learning to improve my drawing skills and this blog has giving me a big influence to that decision. I particularly fall in love with this picture below.
Such a lovely drawing..

Source : You & Me Forevermore ,  I+A 

Traum

"May you never steal, lie, or cheat.

But if you must steal, then steal away my sorrows, 

and if you must lie, lie with me all the nights of my life, 

and if you must cheat, then please cheat death because I couldn't live a day without you."

(The Bride said to The Groom, Leap Year (2010)

Just watched Leap Year (2010) again, mostly because I love the Irish accent that Declan have. Oh, and never forget about the Ireland landscape also! The landscape just great because it is. 

and I kinda fall in love with this song..

Flowery

It's going to Fall!

Cottonink is one of my favorite Indonesian clothing brands. 

Having a few of their products and I just love it!

Here's some of their collections which is I'm just unconditionally falling in love with.

 These are some of their collection that I think I can wear it with my hijab. And seeing the pattern just make me want to playing and having a picnic at the garden. Actually I loves this kind of blazer which is full of pattern and bright color, though I might be thinking again if I really want to wear it daily.

And look at the collar! You can't wear it with a long and spreading your hijab, but taking a turban style would be good I think. 

I'm craving for this bag! Maybe to some people it looks like other ordinary bag, but I don't really need something colorful and bright bag. I happen to like a simple and unique kind of bag, Istanbul bag from their latest collection also catches my eyes. 

source: Cottonink Midnight Garden Lookbook

The reason why you should date a girl who love to reads..

Date a girl who reads. 
Date a girl who spends her money on books instead of clothes. She has problems with closet space because she has too many books. Date a girl who has a list of books she wants to read, who has had a library card since she was twelve.

Find a girl who reads.
You’ll know that she does because she will always have an unread book in her bag. She’s the one lovingly looking over the shelves in the bookstore, the one who quietly cries out when she finds the book she wants. You see the weird chick sniffing the pages of an old book in a second hand book shop? That’s the reader. They can never resist smelling the pages, especially when they are yellow.

She’s the girl reading while waiting in that coffee shop down the street. 
If you take a peek at her mug, the non-dairy creamer is floating on top because she’s kind of engrossed already. Lost in a world of the author’s making. Sit down. She might give you a glare, as most girls who read do not like to be interrupted. Ask her if she likes the book.

Buy her another cup of coffee.

Let her know what you really think of Murakami. See if she got through the first chapter of Fellowship. Understand that if she says she understood James Joyce’s Ulysses she’s just saying that to sound intelligent. Ask her if she loves Alice or she would like to be Alice.

It’s easy to date a girl who reads. 
Give her books for her birthday, for Christmas and for anniversaries. Give her the gift of words, in poetry, in song. Give her Neruda, Pound, Sexton, Cummings. Let her know that you understand that words are love. Understand that she knows the difference between books and reality but by god, she’s going to try to make her life a little like her favorite book. It will never be your fault if she does.

She has to give it a shot somehow.

Lie to her. 
If she understands syntax, she will understand your need to lie. Behind words are other things: motivation, value, nuance, dialogue. It will not be the end of the world.

Fail her. 
Because a girl who reads knows that failure always leads up to the climax. Because girls who understand that all things will come to end. That you can always write a sequel. That you can begin again and again and still be the hero. That life is meant to have a villain or two.

Why be frightened of everything that you are not? Girls who read understand that people, like characters, develop. Except in the Twilightseries.

If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. 
When you find her up at 2 AM clutching a book to her chest and weeping, make her a cup of tea and hold her. You may lose her for a couple of hours but she will always come back to you. She’ll talk as if the characters in the book are real, because for a while, they always are.

You will propose on a hot air balloon. Or during a rock concert. Or very casually next time she’s sick. Over Skype.

You will smile so hard you will wonder why your heart hasn’t burst and bled out all over your chest yet. You will write the story of your lives, have kids with strange names and even stranger tastes. She will introduce your children to the Cat in the Hat and Aslan, maybe in the same day. You will walk the winters of your old age together and she will recite Keats under her breath while you shake the snow off your boots.

Date a girl who reads because you deserve it. 
You deserve a girl who can give you the most colorful life imaginable. If you can only give her monotony, and stale hours and half-baked proposals, then you’re better off alone. If you want the world and the worlds beyond it, date a girl who reads.

Or better yet, date a girl who writes.

sumber: Date A Girl Who Reads by Rosemarie Urquico 

Blesse

Afraid of getting hurt, sometimes, is the only reason of what we do or not to do.  

People, who success in their life, seems to me, always said that it's take a bravery action to being on top. Get out of the box. See the whole picture. The cliche phrase is get out of your comfort zone. 

and that phrase occurs to all aspect of our life. 

which is include ... our love life (or to me, lack of it.) 

Once, my friend, who always get into the same group with me if there's a project at my class, or let's say one of my good friend, said to me: the only thing that hold me back from getting to know someone is this silly little thing that I  truly keeps in my head. 

said I hold off my feeling or hearts because I am afraid of getting hurt by someone. 

or in rather rough words, I am a coward. 

Well, maybe I am. 

No, I am not saying myself a coward. 

 I just seems have a rather vigorous self protection than other people. 

:) 

Relationem

And it takes two to make a relationship.
so, where the hell are you, man?

You Got Me

Re-watching Leap Year (2011).
Such a sweet but funny movie for me and I love the soundtracks!
Especially You Got Me by Colbie Caillat..
And I found this video when I'm looking for her official music video at Youtube (if there is any, but i guess not)..

A Little Bit In Love

I think I am a little bit in love with Letters and Lights, Clouds.
this one is their song that catches my ears now  :)

The voice, the music, even the lyrics! 
follow their on twitter 
or their facebook
even try to take a peek on the youtube!
you wouldn't be disappoint!

Oldies

Just walking through my old playlist.. 

Found one of original soundtrack from my other favourite movie (beside 50 First Dates, of course), 

Love Actually (2003)

anyway, I love the song Here With Me by Dido, badly. 

well, part of because it's the soundtrack of the movie scene talk bout Marc and Juliette (the best story that I like in this movie, btw).  

Selbstschutz

My friend ever told me once, that maybe...

I just don't want to get hurt. 

So I protect myself out from everything which is could be a weapon for myself. 

I never let them get close enough. 

I built a wall between. 

I kept the space. 

or worse, I just need to run away. 

It could be the truth, or just a silly understanding of me from him. 

"So I won't let you close enough to hurt me."

Turning Tables, Adele

Se siente vacío y frío

Kalt is edited by me.

It feels so hard to just take a breath.

Let alone dreaming.

acerca de usted

acerca del futuro

acerca de nosotros

Querida, where will we go?

De Girasol

This pict is edited by me.

Just like a Sunflower.

Always looking at the sun.

Silently.

Hoping the Sun will look back at her.

Just like me.

Praying for you.

Silently.

Green or Blue? Seems all the same...

All in green..
not even blue...
all the shapes of the moment..
assimilate..
and I just realized it..
I don't need that 3 words, 8 syllables from your mouth
all you have to do is just
asks me to stay
beside you
at the green...

Lonesome

Maybe, I am just missing you..
I'm missing our moments...
You and your dark eyes, staring at me...
Your voice, not an angelic one nor the devil's wish, ringing in my head...
We, just me and you, keeping our heart in silence...
Do you feel the yearning, speaking in the air?

My feminin side...

that's picture which taken by me, and the object basically are my things

I might be,

Crying like a baby when watching a very romantic movie...
Screaming like a kids when I seeing anythings cute and pretty..
Imagining a prince with his curly hair, coming to me riding a white horse...
Thinking like a thousand times, wondering what do I looks like with this cloth on me..
Gossiping the new stories of what happens in our life with my pals...
Having stuff related to a plan for makes me feel more beauty in my bag...

You and people just don't realize it yet...
To thinking that I am a girl...
:)

Take the step

This pict was taken by me, a long time ago.

I knew that you stared at me for a little long. And I'm busy pretending to not see you back, keeps my smiles for myself.
I'm not ready yet. I'm not ready to know you more. To walk beside you.
Maybe I'm not brave enough.
Maybe I'm scared.
Maybe, you just my 'maybe'...

Someone

"The Shadow" is taken by me

Tonight the rains fall down.
I don’t know why, maybe because the premenstrual syndrome, or anything that pissed me off, I was crying.

The fear just came to my mind, and I’m feeling upset.
I thought that I do really need someone to talk to.
Someone who listen everything that comes out of my mind.
Someone who does not tell me advices for what I feel.
Someone who says everything will be fine for me.
Someone who says it’s okay to be afraid and scared.
Someone who says I’ll be there for you when you fall down.
Someone who says I won't let you down.
Yeah, someone who give me a hand to hold on to.
Maybe I just need someone.

Evasion

That picture was taken by me, just now.

I just have to put on a cynical face, turned around when I saw you, and tried to not having a conversation with you. Just that simple ways. And you will go.
From my dream.
From my mind.
and from my heart.
Cause I can't handle it anymore, so I give it up.
I'm waving the white flag.